"Let Me" by 123

Let me have my moment to mourn for the past

Before I step into the future

Let me cry and weep for the things I have left behind

Before I make this decision

Let me picture you in my thoughts and dreams

Before I allow another in

Let me consider the consequences

Before you put on the pressure

Let me breathe

Before I speak

Let me sit

Before I stand up against what I fear

Let me know you are standing behind me

Before I stare ahead

Let me know you believe in me

Before I take this step

"Star Light, Star Bright" by Anonymous

why
do i 
search the sky
for the first firefly
or star that i spy?
no matter how hard i try
somehow love keeps on passing me by.
i still don't know why everything went awry...
my feelings for you seemed too strong to deny. 
maybe my next wish should be for the right guy,
but right now i'm just hoping to keep my eyes dry.

Battle of the Fates - By 123

I guess I just didn’t really realize it before.

I mean, I knew in some deep recess of my brain that is was possible, but the fact that it is coming up through the surface is scary.

I don’t think I’m ready.

I know I’m not ready.

What do you do when you aren’t ready for something but you want it so bad?

What?

Why do I think this?

Well.

I know you infiltrate my life and my dreams.

Everything I do is part of a plan to be with you.

If I hear even one negative thing about you, I seethe.

Don’t worry...it is an inside seething, not outside. I can control it.

I imagine you sleeping next to me, I imagine our future family. I see our dogs playing together. Does he like her? Will she attack him?

I smell you sometimes...randomly...I don’t know if it is a perfume or a lotion, but it is intoxicating.  My day stops and my life depends on that scent.

My soul screams out for you at inopportune times.

I will be doing something mundane, like making coffee, for instance. I can literally hear my soul screaming for you.

I pause...

I let it set in...

Then I tell my conscious self that you aren’t here.

My unconscious doesn’t know that and it doesn’t understand...it just aches for you. It is a body shattering scream. At times I have fallen to my knees.  My soul knows where it needs to be...my body is hesitant. It is a battle of fates.

"Normal" - by 123

Someone is being born tonight

Someone is getting married and someone is dying

Me?

I am sitting on my ass on the couch.

I don’t have the courage to go out and don’t have the fortune of having a significant other

I have no confidence besides the liquid kind

Lump on the couch...all I am and all I am worth

Yes

I feel like that now

Tomorrow I may be energized to be more. I forever live in this conundrum.

I breathe deep, hoping for a better day tomorrow

"Glass Slippers Don't Come in Size 11" - Anonymous

once upon a time...
the phrase ingrained into the childhood
of every little girl
who dreams of the day
that her prince will come
and sweep her off her feet.
but why does everyone always talk about finding the love of your life,
as if merely meeting the man will be the crowning achievement?
why doesn't anyone ever warn the wide-eyed little girl
that when you find your prince, he might not love you back?
or that it might not be a prince at all?
no longer hoping for happily ever after...
now i settle for a smile every once in a while.

"Every Time" by 123

Every time I see you, I fall deeper into the abyss of love
It starts slowly, but I always feel it happening.
The weakness, the shortness of breath...it happens in an instant.
It's only you that I see
I stand tall and try to hide it, but I know you know.
I see the smirk...I study your thick lips
They are like pillows for my own.
I see the concentration in your eyes
They are like pools of eternal life.
I see your hips move towards mine
They are moved by something we cannot control.

"Look" - By 123

I see your photo and I salivate.
I hear your voice and I can't concentrate.
I taste your skin and I accumulate
Memories that make my heart allocate
You to a special place.
Then I concentrate...
Focus and cultivate
Ideas that will make you mine.

"Skinny" By 123

I have no confidence because I am fat.

My biggest fear is choosing an outfit to wear out with the girls.

I know you are all looking at my muffin top or the roll of blubber that is protruding out of my waistband.

I have declined to go out with my friends because my clothes don’t look right.

I know, you say get new clothes...when you are fat, it isn’t that easy and if you are saying that, you have no right to...you are skinny. No fat girl would ever say that without defying your fat sisters. That is a sin.

There is a small part of my thighs that rub tighter when I walk. It is a constant reminder that I am fat.

It is a constant reminder that I am not accepted as beautiful.

You don’t know the struggle...Hey skinny ass...do you know how it feels to starve yourself to lose weight?

Wait...maybe you do. Maybe you starve yourself to be skinny. Do you throw up? Does it feel good? Should I try it?  I would if I can look like you.

Is it easy to throw up? How do you do it? Stick your finger down your throat? That doesn’t work for me. I tried it.  It only makes me gag. Maybe I  am not doing it right.

I can’t go out to bars with my friends because I am fat. I know everyone is looking at me. I know the guys will always choose my friends over me so I DON’T EVEN BOTHER.

I wear clothes that swallow my fat.  I apologize for wearing the same thing week after week, it’s the only sweater that covers the roll of fat that has settled in my midsection.

Oh, you have a comment to make?

Screw You!

You are skinny. You don’t understand. You can go out without being judged.

Oh.

You get judged too?

Why?

You are too skinny? They call you anorexic?

Are You?

No?

You don’t want to go out?  Why?  You are skinny?

Oh. They make fun of you too...

"River" - by Meghan Abell

Along the midnight river I walk
In search of you
When I see the water sparkle
It is pieces of you I see
Luminating the river

"Your..." by 123

My knees won’t stop shaking and I only heard your voice.

My heat won’t stop pounding and I only saw your face.

My body is on fire and I only smelled your scent.

My mind is drunk and I only thought of you.

Awesome Quote from April Klazema

If you are absent during my struggle, don't expect to be present during my success"  - Will Smith

Great Quote I Stumbled Upon

"Pray, forgive yourself, appreciate others, listen to your gut, do things you enjoy, & remind yourself that we are all loved & connected."

"I Know" by 123

I know how it feels to be one step from destruction

Fearing and knowing that one wrong move will end it all

I know how it feels to stare at something

Praying and willing it to be yours

I know how it feels to think you are flying

Knowing that nothing can touch you because you are so high

I know how it feels to be lost

Collecting anything that bears any resemblance of the life you knew

I know how it feels to be victorious

Holding the prize in my arms and knowing I will never let it go

I know how it feels to be you

"Intense" by Meghan Abell

The fire inside me
Burns for you
Burns like the midnight blue

Dreams by Meghan Abell

Follow your dreams
Never let anyone get you down
They only get you down so they can be on top
Rise above them

"The Prayer" by 123

Have you ever asked God for a sign?  Have you ever asked God for a sign and had it come to pass? Something that is so inconceivable...something that is nothing you expect.

The jump in your heart and the turning of your stomach when that moment happens...when you ask God for a sign and you experience that sign...have you felt it?  Have you felt that magic? The glory? 

Oh God...I have faith...you have given me the sign so many times...when will it come to pass?  Next, I pray for that. I am afraid, but oh so ready. It is confirmed by you and it will happen.

Now God, I pray that you ready me for this.

Is this what faith is?  Asking you to prepare me for something that I have asked You for?

Yes...I believe it is.  I have faith and I believe in Your signs. I have faith.